AHHHHHHHHHHHH

October has been full of change. I feel like the rug was ripped out beneath my feet and I spent the rest of the month struggling to find a place to stand. Tomorrow is November and it's going to be a very special and exciting month. I'm going to spend November weaving my own, personal, magic carpet. I don't want to spoil my blog with excitement of where I might be heading. I'll wait until it's all booked. This weekend I decided I'd ditch the suitcase for a backpack; for a real adventure.

This is the first time in my entire life I've not had a room. It is the scariest feeling in the world. I don't have anywhere to hide my treasures. I'm very fortunate to have some obliging friends. I don't have a room. I don't have a bed. I don't have him. I feel so nervous. This is by far the biggest leap of faith I've ever taken, and honestly I am terrified. The craziest bit is how sudden this has all been, a month ago I would have had no idea. But that's life, and I'm living it right now.

Last year I made a similar leap of faith, but it was a lot easier. It wasn't something I'd done alone. I'm struggling with the details. I'm trying to sort my life into four piles; what to take; what to chuck; what to keep; what to donate. It's hard being cut throat with your possessions. I believe that often the hardest things are the most rewarding : - )

three days of work

five days until christchurch

eight days until sydney

?????

See those question marks? They're mysterious! I don't know that bit yet, but I think it's my favourite of all.

ps. today i dug my toes into the sand and i loved it : P