Wednesday, November 3, 2010

I got a few cards today

One of them read "Wherever you go, go with all your heart."

As I read it, I paused. When I get onto that plane I need to be fully committed to the amazing adventure I'm about to embark on. Ready to give it to my everything. It's not often in your life these opportunities present themselves. When you're not really attached to anything anymore and you can just strip away all your possessions and do what you've always wanted to.

I want to help people. I want to document what I see. I want to record the memories I create so that I can remember them in their full, rich, glory. I want to make new friends, have new experiences, and really push myself so I can grow as a person.

Most of you who read this blog will know I lost something that I treasured recently. I've been battling with a variety of suggestions as to what I should do. "If you love something, set it free, and if it was meant to be it'll come back." but then, it was worth more to me than just letting fate take charge. So I've been confused, a lot. Whether I should try or step aside. How much space to give. In hindsight making sudden and dramatic changes to my life wasn't the smartest move... but it certainly was the most interesting. I've put all my feelings out there, and now I've just got to chin up and get on with my adventures. I'm still hoping we can resolve things, but I'm not counting on it anymore.

So when I step on that plane to go away I need to be fully committed. I need to take all of my heart.

My last day of work today, and it was so much sadder than I thought. But a good sad; the kind of sad that is a necessity to do something more satisfying and rewarding than ever before.

And so the clock is ticking, the bags are packed, my heart is a little sore, but I get to see my girls this weekend and I couldn't be more excited.

1 comment:

tobiaz said...

hey Izy! i think your absolutely going to have the time of your life and you've got the right attitude for it!

I enjoy reading your blog posts and i'm excited to keep following you on your adventures!

an old friend,