Friday, December 2, 2011

I've been a little disconnected

When I travel I find that I get swept away by the busyness of exploring and discovering. I'm more settled now than I've been in the past year, and I'm hardly settled. When I first left in November last year, a part of me hoped to find all the answers to my uncertainties - that I'd just finally reach some destination and everything would fall into place and I'd know: I'd know what I want to do with my life, where I want to live, and all of the finer details.

I'm coming to terms with a lot at the moment and it's exhausting. Whenever I look at a map and see where I am and how far away New Zealand is my heart gets a little heavy. I'm not home sick, but I miss it a lot. That's okay, I believe that missing something is a good thing, that it means you've had something special and worth longing for. A while ago someone pointed me to a quote that said "letting go is better than maintaining control" - I feel like that's what I've gotta do right now, just let go and trust in everything.

I had such a fun weekend in Prague - the most fun I've had in a looooong time! My camera and I still feel like strangers, but I'm working on it. Hopefully this weekend I can snap some sweet pictures of the Christmas lights and markets in Prague, they're magical.

These photos are a bit random, but the first is of me dressed up as a devil for St Nicholas' day here in Czech Republic (a few days early, mind you, but it was for my little English class) and the other two photos are of the boys wearing little mos one of my wonderful friends sent over <3 too cute! :)

And this is the song that melts my soul. I remember playing it on repeat when I flew to Europe for the first time, while staring out the window. I remember listening to it wandering the streets of Amsterdam. I intentionally played it whenever I needed some comforting, or whenever something was so amazing that I wanted to always remember. When I listen to it, a flood of emotions rush through me, and I feel taken back to any of the moments in time where I played it. It's beautiful.

1 comment:

Sladjana said...

Oh hun I'm glad that everyting is going ok! I also have that idea that one day everything will get togheter and I will know :)
Lovely photos! Amazing post!